Jaxon Is My Hero

Today is a brutally difficult day for me. As Jaxon's mother it is especially hard to be without him. I know he wants us to be happy and he is doing all he can to see that we are. I know that as I'm preparing for our new little guy to arrive Jaxon had something to do with getting his "Helper" here. I'm grateful that I have the knowledge that Jaxon is ok he made it and he's waiting for us. Now Grandpa Mel is with my sweet boy and I can only imagine the two of them running wild in the fields of Heaven. Neither of their bodies are tired or sick. Makes me smile really big. I love this picture of Grandma Phyllis and Grandpa Mel with baby Jax. Right after he was born they came up to our house in Shelley. Jaxon was the first Smith grandson.




I'd like to share something my wise brother Kyle shared with me last November. I wasn't able to reach him today to get his permission,but I think he won't mind.


"I have been thinking all morning about your email. We may wonder why we go through such trials and tribulations. We may want to question why a God of love lets horrible things happen, especially to His followers. Think of what happened to Abinadi at the stake or to Joseph Smith (Read Doctrine and Covenants 122 for a humbling account). In fact human history and the scriptures are filled with accounts of the suffering of the righteous. Why does this happen. And why me? Why us? I wish that I had the answer. All I know is that God does love us. He knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows what we need and what we can endure. Just as the Apostle Paul tells us in 1 Corinthians 10:13 that we will not be tempted beyond that which we can bear, He also will not put us through trials above that which we can bear. His desire is for us to become like Him, to return to Him in all of His glory. And we have to humble ourselves and realize that we do not know what we need at certain times. We have to have faith that there is something beyond the pain and suffering. We have to have faith that He is preparing for us for what is to come, for something far better than we can imagine. We have to remember "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:8-9). "

Peter 1:7. "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ."

When I need spiritual uplifting I always go to my brother Kyle. He knows exactly what I need to hear. I'm so grateful to have him, to lean on him and to be able to benefit from his determination to always be a faithful servant of the Lord.

I would just like to let my beautiful son Jaxon know how much I love him and long to be reunited with him. I will try to do my best while I am finishing what the Lord wants me to do with my time on earth. I miss you son and am so proud to be your mom. I love you best friend, you are my hero.