Fun with IPhoto

Marli and I were playing around on with iphoto on our new imac. When I watched this, she reminded me of her brother Jaxon. One time when I was videoing Jax at primary children's while he was in Bone Marrow. He was watching himself on the little view finder. He was really watching "What's Jaxon doing?" He had Cheetos in his teeth. he asked "What's wrong with Jaxon's teeth. Marli's little giggle takes me back to listening to Jaxon's sweet giggle.


I know this is pretty silly and freaky, but we thought it was Pretty Funny!

Come In My Office & Meet My New Boss

The Calm After The Storm

I'm thankful that I am finally feeling better. It has been a brutal 9 days of being super sick. I went back into the doctor because I wasn't getting any better. They ran a series of blood tests and came to the conclusion that I go through life 24/7 full throttle. I can't keep on that path or my body will continue to shut down. My immune system was so weak from all the stress I've been under. Today I finally feel like I am at peace. Whatever is going to happen is going to happen. I can't stress out about it. I need to accept it and move on. I am enjoying the calm after the storm. On my days off I'm going to quit doing way too much. I'm done living in the fast lane. I was down in bed for several days. Anyone who knows me knows that's just not possible. I didn't have a choice. I can never sit and be still. Having the flu and being that sick forced me to rest. I'm not going to be that hard on myself anymore. So here is the funky Bo-Bunny album I made last Friday night. It was so fun. I think it turned out pretty cool. I just need to print my pictures and put them in it. This was a super fun class.

This picture of Conor is from today. Before church we took some pictures. Conor is obsessed with having something around his neck. He grabbed the camera strap, put it around his neck and I took this shot.

Jakey took a couple of Marli and me (Conor wanted me to hold him and he was still in his p.j.'s)Every time I put him down he'd come back over and tell me he wanted up again.
Marli took these ones of Jakey and Me. Jake kept trying to give me bunny ears so I distracted him by "Rock'in out"

Conor has decided he loves playing on the stairs. No matter how hard I try to block off the stairs he finds his way to them. He was playing with this bus for quite a long time. He was dancing and singing to the music it plays.
Yesterday we had such a fun day as a family. Somehow all three kids ended up in the tub together at the same time. I didn't get any pictures of that. It was pretty insane. There was water everywhere. They had a fun time. We haven't made homemade pizza in ages so we did that. Then Marli helped me make Valentine cookies. The kids played guitar hero for the first time. They loved it. When all the kids were finally in bed I was upstairs watching t.v. (which never happens). Ry came up and asked me if I wanted to play spades on the xboz 360. I said sure. So him and I played cards and had fun just the two of us. It was so nice to sit side by side and laugh and enjoy the time together.

Today after church I was set apart as a primary CTR5 teacher. Jacob and Marli were able to sit in on it. The bishop's counselor gave me a wonderful blessing. The spirit was so strong. I felt this incredible comforting peace wash all over me. I'm grateful for the Priesthood. I'm grateful my kids were able to share that experience with me.

Can I Ask You Something?

Tonight I was laying on the couch downstairs dreading what to make for dinner when the sweetest thing happened. Jakey came and laid with me. The conversation went something like this. Mom are you feeling any better? No Not really. Dad and I have been praying for you to feel better. Mom is the same thing going to happen to you that happened to Jaxon? I don't mean you getting cancer,but Jaxon was too good for this world so Heavenly Father took him back to live with him. (With tears in his eyes he hugs me) Mom I love you so much I want you to feel better. How sweet! Then he went and got his book from the school library and we read it.


The sweetness couldn't last forever at our house. I was in my scrap room getting something when all of a sudden rice was flying everywhere. Apparently Marli was swinging my "Shmuf" (rice bag) that Devon made me and it hit something that spliced it open. Voila!!! Rice everywhere!

I was super proud of myself. I didn't get upset. I didn't even say a bad word. Probably because I just don't have the energy. I never said a bad word . I just grabbed the camera and the vacuum.


It took forever to get all the rice cleaned up.

Conor Loves the vaccum. He isn't scared of it at all. Well he wasn't until tonight. I got out our little vac to clean up the rice. Conor was having fun playing with it.Then I turned it on and was vacumming. I set it down for a second while I moved some things. He grabbed it, his hand went over the hose when it was on. It sucked his hand pretty good. He looked at me like his B/f bit him. Crazy! That reminds me of one more thing. I asked Jake to bring Conor to me today so I could wipe his face. Conor was peeved at Jake for manhandling him. He flipped out and bit Jake's hand. Jake almost cried. He said he bit me! He bit me hard!

Coming To A CrossRoad

Watch out below! This is exactly how I feel! It's super scary hanging off the edge like I am. I knew this day was coming someday. I guess I was just in complete denial. My boss Dr. Fred sold the practice to Jaman Brunson. It's official. He gave him the check and signed the papers. Patients asked was I part of the sale? I'm not exactly sure. Jaman and I are going to sit down and go over things. I am completely overcome with sadness.Time will tell what's going to happen. Fred is going to stay working until the end of April. I feel like I'm loosing everything I have worked so hard for. I'm defiantly at a crossroads in my life. I'm turning it over to The man upstairs. Whatever is supposed to happen will.
For now I'm going to Redicare to see if they can give me something to help me feel better. I have the flu and feel horrible. I'm calling it a day. I think I'll crawl back in bed and hide as long as possible.

Sledding After Fresh Snow storm

We really got quite a bit of new snow the last couple days. It's the really heavy wet snow that gives me a heart attack when I shovel it. I was starting to think that maybe it was just going to be cold for awhile and that we had shoveled the last of this years snow a couple weeks ago. That must have just been wishful thinking. I had my car detailed inside and out last week and so I may be the one to blame for all the new snow. I new my car couldn't stay clean for long. After shoveling the driveway we decided we needed to make the most of the new snow. Ryan & I took the kids sledding.

Conor was loving being outside

Ry pulled Jacob and Conor for a little bit...until they both fell off

Here's Ry going down the hill with all three kids!

I wish I had audio of Conor's laugh. He seriously had a grin from ear to ear the entire time. He was belly laughing all the way down the hill. This is the very first time he's been sledding. He L*O*V*E*D it!!!
Marli was having the time of her life. She went down more than all of us combined. I love this picture of her. She's so happy!



Look at that face....he's such a little stinker! Looking at that picture you would never know that Jacob was ready to go home after about five minutes of being out in the cold. Ryan and I couldn't believe we had to practically force him to enjoy himself.

This picture pretty much sums up the fun time we had. Marli was so excited to be out in the cold, with the fresh snow. She was eating snow and really loving every second of it! I'm completely exhausted from carrying Conor up the hill at least ten times. Looking at these pictures makes it totally worth the effort. I think we'll all sleep good tonight!

Jakey had his friend Andrew from school come over tonight. Andrew brought his older sister Ariel with him. Marli was excited to have a girl to play with. The kids had a blast dressing up as super hero's and playing the wii. I was going to take pictures of the kids, but Jake asked me not to. I'll have to be sneaky next time to get some pic's.

Dog Gone

A friend sent this to me today. Funny thing is this looks exactly like the back seat of my armada, and if we had a dog it would be a beagle. Check out the scratch marks on the seat. The email said " I got pulled over by a cop for speeding. I almost talked my way out of the ticket until the cop looked in the back seat and saw my dog"! I thought this was so cute.

Ever Feel like this?

Some of my new faves

This week a few of my new faves are:

Facebook
Imac
Clean Armada detailed inside and out
Clean Carpets and tile
Making jewlery with Devon

Pocket Full Of Sunshine

Looking out the window today this is not the picture I see. It is however what I pretend to see when I close my eyes. For some reason I always get really down in January. The cold doesn't help any. I've been wishing the weather would warm up a little so we could at least thaw out. Marli told me we were driving in the clouds today on our way to my office, it was so foggy. If I had my way I would go somewhere warm Jan. 1st and come back in April. When I look at this picture of myself I realize how much a smile can alter my attitude.

These faces always make me smile.

I have always sung this song to all four of my kids ........
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.You make me happy when skies are grey.You'll never know dear, how much I love you.Please don't take my sunshine away.The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,I dreamt I held you in my arms.When I awoke dear, I was mistaken,So I hung my head down and cried.You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.You make me happy when skies are grey.You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away.

I may not have a pocket full of cash...but at least I have my family which always makes me have a pocketful of sunshine.Lately it seems everything our family needs/wants has at least a $100 price tag. After playing Kyle & Lesley's snowboarding game on the wii fit over Christmas break we've really wanted one. They are sold out everywhere. Also after playing the wii on my parents super nice flat screen plasma t.v. we're feeling sad playing it on our t.v, it seems so small now. We needed a new printer to go with our new computer, I was able to find one at Sam's club for a way better price than anywhere else. I really wanted photo shop for my i mac. Thankfully I was able to trade my unopened PC software for mac thanks to my sister-in-law Melissa. We need an external hardrive/backup. I guess this is why wish lists were invented. We'll keep adding to our wish list until maybe someday we win the lottery. A girl can dream right?

*Yesterday my group of kids in Jacob's class got to do a really fun art project. When I got home I was inspired to clean out my scrap/craproom. I went through everything and purged all I thought I couldn't live without. Everything else I put in bags to donate to Jacob's teacher, Mrs. Gale. She was elated when Jake gave her everything this morning. It made me feel great to be able to get rid of a lot of stuff and know it will be used and appreciated.

Day Dreaming

Today I'm missing a lot of my loved ones that don't live close. I was day dreaming about what if I could create a village where my favorite people were my neighbors. How wonderful it would be to be surrounded by those who matter most to me. I could go out my front or back door and know I could help those who really need my help. Most days I feel so overwhelmed with life, what a blessing it would be to know I could yell out the window or knock on the door next door and have a loved one come over and help. Don't get me wrong my neighbors are all wonderful and do help me a lot. I just wish I could have my own little corner of the world where everyday I could spend as much time as I want with those who I really want to be with.
This is my dream house. All of my kids cousins would live on my road. They could play all day. They could have sleepovers all the time.

I think this would be Ryan's dream job owning a little shop that had different cheese and treats. It would be in our village. Just some food for thought. Maybe someday.

Happy New Year

2009 The New Year always brings a new start, new slate ,and the possibilities of new adventures. Our family is excited for this New Year. I have a lot to Blog about and get caught up. I have wanted to get some nice pictures of the kids and it unfortunately never worked out. We missed getting our Christmas cards out this year because we didn't have a recent picture of all of us. My brother and his wife Lesley were here for a week visiting.Lesley has recently taken up photography and while she was here we threw together a little photo shoot.I needed three specific pictures. One for our New Year Cards, One for my mother-in-law of my three kids for her desk at work and one of Ella (Kyle's little girl) with my three kids for my parents.Lesley found this pretty cool place to take pictures outside. Exactly what I had in mind.It was a nice day until we started taking pictures. Then the wind really picked up. The kids said they were freezing. It was interesting to watch people look at us as they drove or walked by. All of a sudden this guy and his dog go walking by, when the dog crosses the street and heads right for Conor.He tried to lick Conor to death. Poor little guy! There were some hysterical moments in the quick fifteen minutes. I'm grateful she was able to get some really great pictures. Thanks Les!

I'm in love....
Our home computer died a few months ago. We have debated back and forth on what to do about getting a new one. We bought our dell right after Jaxon passed away. It was supposed to be great to copy all our video of him to dvd. Monday I made the decision to order a new computer. After much research I learned a imac would be ideal for our family. So we have crossed over to the apple way of life. Yippee! As Marli would say "My one true love... I love you" It was delivered today and I'm happy to welcome this baby into our family.Hopefully it will become my new best friend and I'll get caught up on blogging.

The Angels T-ball Team Season Started Monday June 9th

Conor Clap,Clap,Clap

Marli Line 'Em Up

The other day I came upstairs to something that may seem pretty common to most people. To me it is anything, but common it's actually very special. Marli found Jaxon's matchbox cars, and was playing with them. There are two blue cases that each hold 50 cars. Jax used to line them up in rows. He was very precise how he lined each car up. Marli was doing something pretty similar. It made me smile. I explained to her how Jaxon would play for hours with these cars and how special it was to me. She gave me a big hug and told me thanks for letting her play with his cars. She tells me all the time "Mom, I wish Jaxon didn't die. I love him." Me too!


I had to grab the camera and take some pictures of this so I'll never forget how neat this was.